It’s tough trying not to trigger traumatized people. Most trauma can be traced back to a troubling time that evoked extreme emotion, and that emotional injury can be everlasting. With that, the tragic thing about trauma itself that troubles people is the fact that being triggered time and time again can too be traumatizing. In other words, trauma can trigger its own exacerbation. “Life’s a bitch and then you die,” is an old saying which implies that one is naturally destined to experience perpetual unfortunate and undesirable events from birth till death. As the saying suggests, I believe that emotional injuries are a part of life. How do you heal from hurtful happenings? Detachment doesn’t always have to derive from dire, distressing, or disastrous circumstances. Detaching by simply avoiding or removing yourself from situations, relationships, and environments with the potential to trigger you are healthy and helpful ways to heal. However, hiding from, hightailing it away from, and hoping to hinder harm ain’t always gon’ work. Because we’ve all been bombarded with bullshit while basically begging not to be bothered, right? Imagine having hidden surveillance equipment placed inside your home—as an introverted, independent individual who’s insistent on preserving your peace—and witnessing niggas that you don’t even like mock you, mimic you, and mention details from your private life on the internet without acknowledging you directly. Now, envision the federal government being involved, leaving no law enforcement agency to report the shit to. And to make it even more fucked up, what if the Feds were itching and implementing intense tactics to indoctrinate you and drive you insane? Gaslighting is mental manipulation meant to make a motherfucker mistake fiction for fact. For instance, “good cop, bad cop” is a manipulation method where police pals partner up to play with perps’ perspectives. The “good cop” is gentlemanly, aiming to gain trust and get along with the guy or gal of interest, as they gradually grasp for cooperation or a confession. Conversely, the “bad cop” is brash and brazen, intending to intimidate individuals being interrogated, betting on the perp breaking under pressure or believing that the “good cop” is a better person and has their back. The aforementioned method could be considered gaslighting because neither of the cops are on the crook’s side, it’s a concerted effort to confound and cloud the crook’s judgement. As I’ve mentioned, I’ve been seeing “Super Mario” merch and memes on my timeline for a while now. I believe that “good cop” members of the Feds liken me to Mario because of my stature and my stated solo mission to “save the world.” Click here to see a picture of “Chocolate Mario,” which is a statue of Mario made completely of chocolate, created by sculptor Amaury Guichon. The significance, as it correlates with me, is in both Amaury and Mario holding up the peace sign. As the tarot readers say, “that’s confirmation.” However, on the “bad cop” side of things, per the direction of and through the “downloads” that they receive from the Feds, many of the tarot readers—doppelgangers included—poke at my past traumatic experiences. Such as an injurious incident that took place in August of 2022, where someone betrayed my trust. As well as other offensive occurrences that I endured in instances when I ignorantly ignored my intuition. I’m sure that I wasn’t supposed to survive this sacrifice of sorts because the sloppiness of the Feds’ shameless showings of their sadistic intentions insinuates that they thought I’d never share the stories and signs of foul play. Many of the traumatic things that I’ve experienced over the past few years were orchestrated and observed by authorities. They’ve shared my medical history with hip hop’s favorite podcaster, fabricated stories and spread rumors, and ceaselessly try to make me seem crazy. For legal reasons, of course, I can’t dish all the details. But I’m about to make history! Heads will roll, and there will be blood.
Do you know how I know niggas are stupid? It’s because they boast and brag about breaking the bank and banging bad bitches as if consuming and copulating aren’t common. Yes, that’s how lame you niggas sound to me! There’s eight billion people in the world because horny humans have a healthy hankering for humping. There’s treacherous traffic in thriving towns because tons of travelers are taking care of business—chasing checks and cranking out coin. Niggas ain’t doin’ nothin’ that average people can’t, won’t, or don’t do! Your “rides” are more expensive just to ride on the same roads as regular riders. The blow-up bitches that you bang are buyable, and their bangin’ bodies are often bought. Those diamonds that drape and “drip” from your necks and wrists depreciate in value as soon as you’re handed the receipts. You niggas live out loud because you love being looked at as opposed to being looked up to. Thinking about that, as a culture, who has more pride in their predictability and painful lack of progression than niggas? By the way, this isn’t bigotry because I’m a black man beseeching niggas to be realer, it’s realism. Like I keep sayin’, if tradition is people preserving the past to placate their predecessors, progression can’t be prioritized. In simpler terms, shit can’t stay the same and change at the same time. What are you doing to push the future forward? Personally, I’m a prime player in the revolution, which is partly why the Feds want me wiped out. Fortunately, I’m fortunate in a favorable fashion. And luckily, I’m already a legend. If you could change one thing about your culture of choice, what would it be? If I possessed the power to progress popular culture, I would make individualism indispensable. In my opinion, originality isn’t an objective for those who’re offended by being overlooked. If attention is attained by attracting an audience that appreciates what’s already accepted, thinking outside the box becomes obsolete. Trends are the most trending things on the internet, so people who want to be “poppin’” often put their passion in what’s popular. As an original, I’m cross by mere comparisons to the incomparable, but I digress. Going back to the topic of consumption and copulation, where do you place sex and money on your list of important things? I believe that healthiness—psychological and physical—is the single-most significant thing for everyone, indisputably. And I think it’s unhealthy to allow trends and traditions to determine what you take seriously, as standardized states of mind can stay stagnated, and trauma can be both generational and cultural. In hip hop culture, also known as black or urban culture, fast money and women are focal points and facets of fascination. Still, we see money as the “root of all evil” and the wrong women as a common cause of conflict that leads to casualties. Why doesn’t pointing out the same shit, over and over, ever nudge niggas toward change? Well, it’s because niggas culturally consider change a corruption of their character, as “switching up” and “selling out” are seen as sordid. How much do you give a fuck? Because this is where learning how to love yourself while being disliked, disagreed with, and disapproved of sets you free. I believe that it’s possible to be traumatized by the idea of people hating you, and I don’t want to dictate what that should mean to anyone. However, if you desire for everyone to like, agree with, and approve of you, you definitely care too much. As I wrap this up, I just want to say that I hope all my haters go to heaven. And it you think you hate me now… Peace.